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I don't know the meaning of it...I like it then I put it in.....
Thanks to postsecrets.

It's not the gifts that makes me smile.

It's not the accomplishment that makes me happy...It's not the gifts that makes me smile....but it's the great time I shared with all who care about me.

Enjoy the Simple Things

Wake up 7 am
Bout time we do it again
Sushine today
I better make plans
Cause it rained yesterday
But that was ok
Cant complain
I love it either way

Living everyday like it's my last
I refuse to be stuck in the past
People actin like machines
Cause they're scared to live their dreams
No not me

I just enjoy and celebrate
Enjoy the love we make
Enjoy, appreciate
Enjoy
Just keep on doing it
'Til my hearts content
And enjoy when someone smiles
Enjoy
So just enjoy the simple things
Enjoy the day life brings
Enjoy the song love sings
Enjoy
Just keep on doing it
'Til your hearts content
And enjoy the gift of life
Enjoy

If you wanna find the paradise
Do it now never too late to try
Lose your inhibitions
Let your inspiration set you free

And just enjoy and celebrate
Enjoy the love we make
Enjoy, appreciate
Enjoy
Just keep on doing it
'Til my hearts content
And enjoy when someone smiles
Enjoy
So let's enjoy the simple things
Enjoy the day life brings
Enjoy the song love sings
Enjoy
Just keep on doing it
'Til your hearts content
And enjoy the gift of life
Enjoy

And the people say

Enjoy la la la la la [Repeat]

I just enjoy and celebrate
Enjoy the love we make
Enjoy, appreciate
Enjoy
Just keep on doing it
'Til my hearts content
And enjoy when someone smiles
Enjoy
So just enjoy the simple things
Enjoy the day life brings
Enjoy the song love sings
Enjoy
Just keep on doing it
'Til your hearts content
And enjoy the gift of life
Enjoy

Enjoy la la la la la [Repeat]

Why????

I was very busy for the last few weeks. Next Monday the school is started. I haven't finished preparing the class materials yet....The rest of this week, I am going to be swamp!!! Three months break flew by just like that. I was planing to do so many things. I dreamed about having all the class materials ready before the semester starts but......It was just a dream........

But you know what... I have learnt something.....I realized when I was occupied with so many tasks, I forgot about what made me sad or depress....Now, all the emotional attach to the situation is gone!!! I am not sure whether time heals or the work does!!! I went back to think about it....why I was so stupid to let those things made me down... I learn to forgive so that I can be forgiven.

Now I know I can lean on the strong side of myself....

Sinor Pico

Sinor Pico is one of the authentic Mexican restaurants in BKK. It is located at the Rembrandt Hotel, Sukhumvit 18. It was the first Mexican food I had in three and half year. I had almost forgotten the Mexican taste. The restaurant is very nice. It made me feel like I was in Mexico. They had live music by a Mexican band. I am not sure that they have the live band playing every night or only on weekend. We were there to celebrate a friend birthday. It took more than one hour before the foods were served. Anyway, it's worth waiting though.



The entrance.

The live band.


Her birthday!

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Something Beautiful

Yesterday, my English teacher at AUA assigned the class to talk about the Valentines'day (I think it was a bit too late to talk about the V day in late March). We listened to a conversation between a brother and a sister who were having dinner at a restaurant on the Valentines'evening. The teacher told us to write down what we caught from the conversation. The main idea was that the brother was optimistic about love and the Valentines' but the elder sister felt Valentines' was cynical. The teacher asked us who did we agree? Some said Valentines' is getting too commercial instead of representing the romance. For me, I do love Valentines' even though, lately, my Valentines' is so quiet. 555



You can't manufacture a miracle
The silence was pitiful-that day
And love is getting too cynical
Passion's just physical-these days
You analyse everyone you meet
But get no sign - loving kind
Every night you admit defeat
And cry yourself blind

If you can't wake up in the morning
'Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You WON'T be lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Something beautiful will come your way

The DJ said on the radio
Life should be stereo - each day
And the past that cast the unsuitable
Instead of some kind of beautiful
You just couldn't wait
All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul, no, no, no
Forgot the time feeling petrified
When they lived alone

If you can't wake up in the morning
'Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You WON'T be lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Something beautiful will come your way

Some kind of beautiful x3

All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul, no, no, no
Forgot the time feeling petrified
When they lived alone

If you can't wake up in the morning
'Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day

You WON'T be lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Something beautiful will come your way x2

Mouth watering

My favorite menu at Zaxby's. Notthing beats the first bite! Zax's Zalad is a house menu of Zaxby. It comes with fresh vegetable, crispy fried chicken, a slice of yummy bread and the house dressing. I wish they expand the francise to BKK soon.

Wings and Things is an unresistable menu. Spicy tasty wings and crispy fried chicken...the heaven is infront of you!!!!

I Can't Resist Finally!

What is happening with me?
I can't stop smiling when I am watching this series. "Chun" is so cute! Or...finally.....I am hypnotized by K-pop boys.

Hey !!! I Am In

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same



บางที่เรา try too hard to stay in the game จนเรา forget what we are fighting for.
Sooner or later, it will turn your "enthusiasm" and "feeling of the achievement" down. ชักจะไปกันใหญ่แล้วเรา just want to thinking out loud....to remind why I am in this ring ....

Happy Valentine's to all who are in LOVE

This is what I am going to do for this Valentine's.....watch this movie over again for the 6th time.

You Don't Know It Until You Feel It (Episode II)

Episode 2

What was solution for my 'lonely' weekend? It is so simple....After many days thinking about 'the lonely symptom' I had, I found that it was not the lonely feeling I had made me suffer. It was because I felt so upset that I couldn't handle it. I expected too much of myself. The final solution is "let it be". I can be happy, sleepy, hungry, angry...why not 'lonely'. It is just another kind of feeling I must deal with it wisely.

Do you ever feel alone or lonely though you are surrounded by friends? It is much more painful than being alone and feeling lonely.



Sometimes I feel
Like I don't have a partner
Sometimes I feel
Like my only friend
Is the city I live in
The city of angels
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

I drive on her streets
'Cause she's my companion
I walk through her hills
'Cause she knows who I am
She sees my good deeds
And she kisses me windy
I never worry
Now that is a lie

I don't ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way

It's hard to believe
That there's nobody out there
It's hard to believe
That I'm all alone
At least I have her love
The city she loves me
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

I don't ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all that way

Under the bridge downtown
Is where I drew some blood
Under the bridge downtown
I could not get enough
Under the bridge downtown
Forgot about my love
Under the bridge downtown
I gave my life away

You Don't Know It Until You Feel It

Episode 1


What do you do when your mind is out of place?

This weekend was a new experience to me. It was not activities I did nor the food I ate but it was the first time I felt 'lonely'! I know what 'feeling alone' and lonely is but it was the first time I really 'feel' it. It surprized me. I usually able to manage my 'alone' weekend. This weekend, something had changed. I woke up and started questioning myself, what I am going to do today? The first thing that came up in my mind was let's go to the office. During driving to the office, I started to feel, this is not what I want to do...so... what do you want to do?....I couldn't figure what I wanted to do...stay home watching TV, shopping, go to JJ, visit a freind...OK...you don't know what you want to do...so...let's get to work. Then...I heard another voice inside of me ...what are you going to do at work?... you don't really want to go for it...you go to work on Sunday just to kill a day!

During driving, I had many things came up in my mind. Finally, I came up with a solution I would better started with calling a freind. She might come up with a good plan for today. (another voice said) yo!!! You'd better stop doing this...it is not her responsibility to make a plan for you...she might have had a plan and your call will make her feel obligate and uncomfortable. (another voice said) Let's call her...and finally I did....(another voice said)...This is not what you want to do...you have to find out what you really want to do..........You never run out of an idea for your weekend...so...com'on you can do it........30 minutes later.......I parked my car infront of my friends' home......I visited a friend family and spent the afternoon with them. Well...finally I came up with something to kill a day...

I spent the evening at home and think to myself...What you did today was a very volatile plan....a plan that you shouldn't rely on...a plan that you make up just to cover a-day-to-day problem...you need a reliable solution.... I KNOW WHAT THE SOLUTION IS.....but you guys have to find out in the next post...ie ie ie

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wind of love

one wrong question end everything

This is so cool! It chilled my day off.

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BitterSweet

It's been a while since the last post.

Influence

ABC nightline interviewed one of my favorite singer, Seal. The topic is about "Inspiration Behind His Music". He just released a new Album "System" this week. He stated the most important person who inspired him to sing was his teacher. From a boy who never sing to a successful singer and song writer. One of his billboard song is "Kiss from a rose", soundtrack of the Batman. He mentioned about this song on his interviewing session. It is "Times like these" by Foo Fighter. He said love the sentiment of the song and the chorus.
Well, since I am easily influenced, I searched in youtube right away. Here are three of many versions of this song.

It’s times like these you learn to live again
It’s times like these you give and give again
It’s times like these you learn to love again
It’s times like these time and time again


I am a one way motorway
I’m the one that drives away
Then follows you back home
I am a street light shining
I’m a wild light blinding bright
Burning off alone

It’s times like these you learn to live again
It’s times like these you give and give again
It’s times like these you learn to love again
It’s times like these time and time again

I am a new day rising
I’m a brand new sky
To hang the stars upon tonight
I am a little divided
Do I stay or run away
And leave it all behind?

It’s times like these you learn to live again
It’s times like these you give and give again
It’s times like these you learn to love again
It’s times like these time and time again

What a life?

My life is so simple these days. No exciting things 24/7. It's like I am cruising on a smooth asphalt road. After I came back from Nan trip, everthing started to calm down. Here is my simple plan for a day. I get up around 7AM. Get myself ready to work. Hop on the car and drive to the University. Make a quick stop to get a cup of ice coffee at gas station along the way. About 8:30AM, I park the car and chat with some grad students for about 15 minutes. Then I move myself to my office on 7th floor. After I get to my desk, I turn on the computer and log on to my hotmail and check if there is any update on friends' blogs. If there is notthing new that means I get to start working. I move things around on my table. I don't know why I have to do this almost every morning. Maybe it is just to kill some time before I start working. I open up files for classes and start preparing the lectures. Half hour or so before 11:15AM I log on to MSN to send a message to Yasmin. 11:10AM get in the elevator. 11:15AM pick up Yasmin to lunch. 12:00-12:15PM back to the department. Stop to drop some snack at graduate student's room. Make a quick chat before taking elevator to 7th floor. By the time I come back from lunch, other faculties are still having lunch. They usually invite me to have some food or desserts. Of course, no hesitation to try some. After that, I am back to my office and continue with what I am doing in the morning. Before going home I stop at Bar Mai to get some food for dinner. After I get to my room and change my outfit, I immediately have my TV on. Unwrap my dinner and enjoy TV dining. Water my cacti every 3 days. After that I turn to be a potato couch. Take shower and go to bed around midnight. That's all for my day, mostly. It is so simple. Too simple.

I sometime wonder what will others do in their free time? I sometime feel guilty because I know I have a lot of things to do. There are million things in the world that I don't know but I still kill the time by watching soap opera. While I am watching TV and killing cells in my brain other may read books, doing excercise or do whatever more beneficial activities. I don't just think about this today but I have been thinking about this issue for quite a while but I can't change my life style. The devil inside me always win.

Think about our life is so short. I am now 32 and I don't think I will live beyond 80. That means I have 48 years to go. I have 28 working years. Based on 8 working hours a day and 22 days a month I have 59136 working hours left. I want to make my life more useful after I spent my parents and goverment resources to make my way on education... Let's make a quick calculation, suppose my parents spent 1000 bath a month since I was born to 12 years old, and 3000 baht when I was 13-17 and 6000 baht when I was 18-21 and 10000 when I was 22-32,
12*12*1000=144000
5*12*3000=180000
4*12*6000=288000
11*12*10000=1320000
Total = 1932000
This is the minimum they spent with me and it is not including the subsidization from community tax in term of scholarship the government provided.

Let's say if I give my parents 5000 baht every month for the next 28 years (it is even impossible for now), it is only 1680000 baht. What is a kind of investment?

After using all resouces, I am called a well educated person but I still don't have a certain plan for my life. Oh! that is to far...I still don't have plan for next week!!...suck...what a shame!!!!

Jerk & Gent

I was very disappointed after he canceled his concert in Thailand last year. Of all this, he is still my most favarite male singer. Some of you may have heard his songs eg. Angle, Supreme, Rock DJ. etc. Some may have heard about his wierd and outrages behaviors. Most of his songs (>70%) contain explicit lyrics but he had it composed in very interesting ways. An article said his songs will make you more energetic because the beat is synchronized well with your heart beat. When I heard this article, it was very questionable. Again, I tried to prove this hypothesis. I listened to his songs and matched the beats with my heart beats. The result showed most of his song matched well with my heart beats but I was not sure that it make me more energetic. I embeded two versions of his performance. One when he is a jerk, the other is when he is a gent! What do you think of him if you see these performances in different time?