You Don't Know It Until You Feel It

Episode 1


What do you do when your mind is out of place?

This weekend was a new experience to me. It was not activities I did nor the food I ate but it was the first time I felt 'lonely'! I know what 'feeling alone' and lonely is but it was the first time I really 'feel' it. It surprized me. I usually able to manage my 'alone' weekend. This weekend, something had changed. I woke up and started questioning myself, what I am going to do today? The first thing that came up in my mind was let's go to the office. During driving to the office, I started to feel, this is not what I want to do...so... what do you want to do?....I couldn't figure what I wanted to do...stay home watching TV, shopping, go to JJ, visit a freind...OK...you don't know what you want to do...so...let's get to work. Then...I heard another voice inside of me ...what are you going to do at work?... you don't really want to go for it...you go to work on Sunday just to kill a day!

During driving, I had many things came up in my mind. Finally, I came up with a solution I would better started with calling a freind. She might come up with a good plan for today. (another voice said) yo!!! You'd better stop doing this...it is not her responsibility to make a plan for you...she might have had a plan and your call will make her feel obligate and uncomfortable. (another voice said) Let's call her...and finally I did....(another voice said)...This is not what you want to do...you have to find out what you really want to do..........You never run out of an idea for your weekend...so...com'on you can do it........30 minutes later.......I parked my car infront of my friends' home......I visited a friend family and spent the afternoon with them. Well...finally I came up with something to kill a day...

I spent the evening at home and think to myself...What you did today was a very volatile plan....a plan that you shouldn't rely on...a plan that you make up just to cover a-day-to-day problem...you need a reliable solution.... I KNOW WHAT THE SOLUTION IS.....but you guys have to find out in the next post...ie ie ie

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wind of love

one wrong question end everything

This is so cool! It chilled my day off.

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